New Focus

I think I need to refocus my life on what's important. I'll be graduating soon. I need to turn my focus to my ministry. I get so distracted with life that I can forget about God and His ministry. I do things on my own strength. I rely too much on my plans and ideas. But tonight at dinner Colossians 3:1-2 came to mind: "Since then you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things." Too often I set my mind on earthly things. Like work, school, trying to learn Spanish, friends, family, etc. Yet at the same time, I know my passion is on things above and God's work through ministry. I haven't been fully living out my passions and desires. This past weekend showed me what I really do love. Though I'm an English speaking American, I love spending my time with the people from the Latino Ministry. Going to the home Bible Study Saturday night was unbelievable. And church today and then afterwards going to the chinese buffet with some people was exactly what I feel like I've always been missing. Not just the laughing, joking, and trying new foods, but the discussions we have. The serious things we talk about. The advice they give me. The care they have for me and each other. It's unbelievable.

I know I still have so much to learn and I have a lot of growing to do still in my faith. I always will. But now I have such a strong desire to reach a higher level of spiritual maturity. I want to reach the pont where God is my number one ALWAYS. Where my mind and heart are on heavenly things, not on earthly things. Where I live every day to bring glory to God and show the love of Jesus to everyone. I want to REALLY study the Bible to the point it changes me from the inside out that brings about real life changes. I want to live and breathe Jesus.